The wiser her

The wiser her looks back in disbelief,
Of all the times she felt stupid,
Of all that she thought caused her grief.

The wiser her held her head in lampoon,
That once she counted stars,
And recited poems to the moon!

The wiser her rebuked herself in snot,
"What a dim-wit I was,
Fell in love without much thought"

The wiser her tusseled with her heart,
"Why did she love him and took care,
When he left the vulnerable her bare.

The wiser her left her overwrought,
"Holding hands while walking,
Looking into eyes, what a waste of lot?"

"Can she go back to time and change it?", she pondered.
Take away the tears and pain,
And may be go back and be more sane?

As if it was possible, she closed her eyes,
To erase the insane in her life and be only wise,

And then she realised, still with closed eyes,
If none of that had happened, would she still be wise?